So Many Thoughts

Dear Diary,

There are so many thoughts going through my mind, but I don't know how to express them.

I have a lot on my plate right now (school, trying to find a job for after graduation, planning my wedding, and planning my sisters baby shower). I'm the kind of person who stresses easily, but I think this is the most overwhelmed I have ever been in my life.

Everything happening in my life is great. I'm almost done with school, I will soon have a big girl job, I'm getting married (!), and I will be an aunt for the first time to a precious baby girl (!!), but even with all these amazing things happening, I can't help but feel scared and confused.

I'm scared because these are all big life changes. I've only known how to be a student, so having a real job will be a transition for me. It's not like I've never worked before -- I've worked in retail, the food industry, and have held down a job as a customer service representative for an insurance company for the last four years -- but having a full-time job is going to be so different.

I'm confused because I don't know how to find a job, or where I even want to apply. I know that my first job won't be my dream job, but I don't even know what field I want to go into. I'm a Communication major, and that's a very broad field. There is so much I can do with my degree, but nothing sounds appealing. Is that normal? God, I hope so.

Well, looks like that's all I've got for tonight. I'll let you know how it all works out.

Rachel